It Goes On

Being away for so long really made me realize a few things...I'll try to keep it on the shorter side of things for you...

1. I love the city. I love the energy and the excitement and how there is always something to do or somewhere you can go. I would really regret it if I never took the opportunity to live in the city. And when I saw "the city" I don't necessarily mean THE city, lol, as in NYC. I just mean any city/downtown area. For example, I would love love LOVE to live in downtown Plymouth, and if I were able to get a teaching job in the area next year, I would want to live there...

2. I'm ready to move on to a job that I enjoy going to. I'm sorry, but answering phones and sending faxes all day is just not my idea of an enjoyable job. Coming back has shown me that I can't wait to move on. I love the people that I work with, but it's just not my cup of tea. I just need to push through these last three months (well, two and a half!) and then I will be moved on to bigger and better. I know that I should just be happy to have a job, especially when I already know so many people who don't have one - and not by choice!

3. I don't want to go another day without Luke. I really don't know what I did all these years without him, but I just want to spend the rest of my days with him, and I can't wait for that to happen. We keep saying that we don't want marriage to be an answer to my having to move back in with my parents, and that's true. We don't. We've already discussed things so I know that we're probably going to wait another year or so, which is okay. There are things that both of us want to accomplish before marriage, but truly...when I was going to the museums and Central Park, and walking around the city, I just kept thinking, "I wish that Luke were here with me." Don't get me wrong, I had a fabulous time with Becky and wouldn't trade my time with her for anything, but I still missed him. And then to get to see him for a night and a day (Sat night & Sunday)...it was just a terrible tease...I didn't want to leave! I wish that we had our crap together so we could move forward in life with each other...it will happen when it's meant to, God's timing isn't the same as ours, as we all know...I just really miss him already...

4. Did you notice how many times I said, "just?!?" Yeesh! I need a new word...